When I was a child I had this vague idea that I had always been here, even before my current life. I named all my dolls Camilla and had this extreme longing for a daughter.
When I was 19 I started dating a guy. At first I was repelled by him, but it soon turned into a romantic partnership. It was very dysfunctional and I didn't know why but I could not break away from him. Things got better after a while. We conceived my first daughter and she was born when I was 21. We spent 7 years together, and in the last 4 years I became ill with many different mysterious illnesses and never could get a clear diagnosis as to what was wrong with me. I started using herbs for everything and felt as if I already knew what every herb was and its function.
We decided to separate in 2012. The day after I asked him to leave our house, I came across a healer who used HVT healing therapy. Since I was already drawn to anything that had to do with healing I wanted to see what this was all about. I met with her and she proceeded to tell me in detail about the life I had lived with my ex and my current daughter in a past life.
That previous life took place in the 700’s in England. Our parents had arranged our marriage. Neither one of us wanted to be married; we were actually repelled by each other. On our wedding night, he raped me and it left deep emotional wounds. I conceived my daughter during this rape. I continued to pursue my passion with healing in order to find a way to sustain myself without his support. He left me when I was 5 months pregnant when he found out what I was doing behind his back. We never saw each other again.
Over the next 16 years I tried to pursue these passions, but held a lot of resentment and anger towards him that never truly healed. When I was 34 years old, I died of a heart attack. My daughter took over my herb business.
When this woman first told me about my past life, I didn’t believe her. But after a while I started to see these events replaying themselves in my current life. All the things from my childhood started to make sense. My soul was trying to guide me back to England when I was 8 where all this occurred.
I met my spirit guide a few months back who revealed all the names of the people involved in that life. Camilla was my daughter’s name!
The cause of my death in that life was all the anger I had built up against him. I have since been working on healing by trying to forgive him in this life.
Posted November 30, 2014