have a clear memory of being in a huge white room with craters
in the floor that contained a clear unmoving liquid. The edges
of the craters came up to about chest level and were uneven,
almost like rock but pure white.
There were shadowy figures standing around the craters who
had a humanoid appearance. Some looked like humans wearing
clothing or with hoods covering their heads. Others had the
basic human shape but with unique differences, like oversized
arms or legs. A few had horns, some on their heads, others
on their shoulders. All of them where shrouded in shadow so
their features were unclear?
Everyone was standing around the craters when I became aware
of my surroundings. I walked toward one of the craters in
the back, somehow knowing to go to that particular one. As
I approached it I felt that I knew the people around it. One
of the figures to my right touched the water as I got close
to the edge of the crater and caused a ripple to run briefly
across the surface.
I looked down into the water and saw a young girl asleep in
a bed on the bottom of the crater. I asked the figure to my
left who the girl was. The figure told me that the girl was
who I was going to be from then on. I started to protest but
my head was shoved into the water and I was falling. As I
fell I managed to get one last look at the figures that stood
around the crater above and saw their eyes watching me fall.
As I fell into place on the bed, I woke up suddenly and with
a racing heart ran downstairs to my mom's computer room and
asked her what I was. She didn't understand the question and
so I asked again, but this time I said, "What am I? Am
I a boy or a girl?" I remember feeling relieved when
she told me I was a girl.
I never told anyone about the memory until a few years ago.
I was three at the time. The memory has always stayed in the
back of my mind and has been easy to recall. I strongly feel
that it was a memory and not a dream, as some would like me
to believe. The memory felt so real that I could feel the
clothing on my body, and I could feel my feet hit the floor
as I walked. I truly felt as though I was in that place.
I do not think that it was a physical place; it was more like
a room full of souls waiting to be reincarnated. When I talk
or write about this memory, it's like watching a movie replay
in my head.
January 5, 2017