again we have a guest contributor to our bi-weekly meditation
series. We thank Krishnaraj Rao from Bombay, India for
sharing his personal insights.]
have arrived at my worldview after about twenty-two
years of seeking, and quite a few visions and experiences
of different sorts. I'm 39 years old, by the way.
have become convinced of one thing: Sleep is the same
thing as death. Our lives are on twin tracks - the track
of sleep/death, and the one that our conscious mind
inhabits when we are awake. When alive, our conscious
mind has a daily biological need to take a dip in the
sea of our permanence. If we deprive ourselves of this
need, it becomes so compelling that we may doze off
even at the steering wheel, and become a danger to our
lives! But after we have slept our fill, our conscious
mind feels the urge to re-emerge into the "outside"
world in which we live and work. This sort of straddling
the twin tracks, or swinging of the pendulum, consitutes
lives also have a bigger swinging of this pendulum.
After we have been "in this world" for a sufficiently
long time, we submit to the urge to return, and after
we have been "dead" for awhile, the swinging
of the pendulum brings us back again.
year, for some weeks, I found myself returning to this
thought time and again in the course of my day, with
a sense of great peace and joy. One night, as my family
and I were driving home in our car, I confided to my
wife that, at the cost of sounding macabre, I knew exactly
what death was all about, and was greatly comforted
by the knowledge.
thing about the twin tracks, I told her, wasn't something
I imagined, or something I theorized. Rather, it is
something that I experienced in past months, and if
there was a single thing that I knew for sure without
having to seek confirmation from any book or any religious
guru, this was it!